Taking a Closer Look

Sucker punch n. (Slang) An unexpected punch or blow.

Change is as good as a holiday (so they say). Don’t get me wrong, I am all for change. Change is inevitable in our lives and feel I adapt quite well. To be honest, I love a good challenge & laugh in the face of it. Rahahaha…

My laughs bitterly faded during the climax of my first ‘Saturn Return.’ In Astrology, this indicates a period usually starting in your in your mid to late twenties, when the planet Saturn comes back around to where it was at the time of your birth. During this period, Saturn creates a mini earthquake under your foundations and can leave you questioning your career, friendships, relationships and even your sanity! A time to figure out what you want, where you are headed, pushing you to make the necessary change needed to build a new you.

So for the past few years I have witnessed myself learning, growing, healing, trying figuring out what I want from life (and what I don’t) and also releasing stagnant friendships that no longer served me. I have become a wife, am embarking on a whole new career path and planning a huge move for the first time in 14 years, handling it all like a true champion.

Well that is what I thought, until I found myself sitting in my car one lunch break, crying uncontrollably, crying like a baby. That’s right I let it all go, everything that had been building up for however long, thinking to myself “why?” Why wasn’t everything working out the way I wanted it to and at the speed I wanted it all to? I had hit breaking point.

We all experience our own ups and downs, highs and lows, continuously rolling with the punches – after all we are all here to learn and grow. I get that. I stay as positive as I can be, I try my best to be grateful for what I have, where I am going and the lessons I have learnt along the way. I trust and know that the universe has the best intentions for me, even if things seem a little foggy right now…. But I am tired! As the tears streamed down my face, I couldn’t help but physically and emotionally feel like life had delivered me a huge sucker punch in the guts!

It was right after that little episode, whilst trying to pull myself together to go back to work after a positive pep talk from my supportive hubby, that I realised how much better I felt and how long it had been since I had a release like that. That was exactly what I needed. I felt that I had cleared out the crap. I was stronger. I was ready to make way for the new and ready to do so with a fresh, new perspective and determination to push on with my hopes and dreams.

There is nothing wrong with having a good ol’ fashioned cry. In fact the next time you find your self having a ‘moment’, remember these important things:

Crying is coping. Holding back our tears only amplifies the stress and emotions our bodies are yearning to release. Crying helps to move the stagnant energy of grief, anger, confusion, frustration and fatigue out of the body so these emotions aren’t stuck inside causing illness or dis-ease. Facing pain, rather than running from it eventually leads to healing, allowing us to accept what cannot be changed. This liberating feeling allows us to start anew, with a clearer sense of purpose.

Tonight when I lay my head down on my pillow, I’ll surrender all my worries, fears and any doubts to the Creator, my Spirit Guides and the Angels. I’ll remember the most important thing – to release any attachments to the outcome and breathe deeply for tomorrow is a new day and I can’t wait to see what blessings and little miracles the universe brings me, and I know she will do so with all intention for my best and highest good.

With Love and Lumiere.